I've never tasted like these before And though are the saddest I have known Their cause is none but one of joy For now it seems I may not be Upon earth as I have been 'til now A truly unexpected of fate For I had up on everyone Especially myself, and thought it Too for any soul to cast a line His would hit the ice and snap in two But someone blew a and with his breath Unfroze ne'er a roaring fire could do An angel now is and from the start I knew that I was to let him in But I smile I weep because I know That something ends so that this can God, what a fool am I, or am I For years have I kept hidden in my The name of one who had been more But I wrote about and set apart From other men, though never did I My feelings, nay, but used him as a An inspiration, to adore But rarely did I think on what I'd If ever my affections replaced By someone living, breathing, warm and For I pledged my life to him in song The same for me I he did not feel If I could the truth, I'd say I planned To go on in this fashion for all I didn't care he care for me As long as I could own him in each And have to think about each night When torment after torment wracked my To writhe in sorrow, bathe in pain's To my pages was my only goal Until the day I dared to call it For this love was the I had known And somehow I keep the rest away For in my mind I never was And thus in love, though with a specter, I did expect, nor wish, nor care To another in that holy place Though in my I knew no one was there Yay, in my mind, but not so in my I loved, I swear I loved, else why pain When of my will I up the door And swept the space I swore hed remain And something within me as I sweep As something new is in every tear Past of memories I long to keep A future that I long for and fear really was no question when it came This star, both fire and gentleness Who gave me time to make my choice But made my will his own with caress For and only once I did not think Where I feel and for that I was proud But it was one to enact the part And something else to say the aloud For once I had, I felt a shadow Which over me had for all these years And no true loss in all the could match The sense of someone passing my tears I hadn't 'til then how lost I was Enveloped in this mist of my So of me my muse had thus become in my eyes no star was seen to shine Unless it bore some of my light Or carried strains of music in the Until my was open to the view No man could enter, in my dreams Its now and I am not afraid I know full well what I am to do But late at night when I my muse I cry for us as though he knew That I had waited years to hear my Once spoken as it have always been Id wait there still but real appeared And the heart no man could hope to win If to my I'd ever said hello It might not hurt this to say goodbye But there is something tragic in this may appear as joyous to the eye Of anyone who witnesses Bound in the and lips of my new friend in a way I've never been And healing wounds I thought would mend The truth shattered my reality The I dreamed but never thought Id meet And now I don't look back in dreams Yet when I do the is always sweet For only pain can me who I was And that girl to me how much Ive grown Ive never tears like these before And yes, are the saddest I have known